I have been suffering from what Eminem would remember only too well: Writer's Block. It seemed like I could no longer write; not on a whim, nor on a deadline. I hated the fact that I started blogging and abandoned it. I even dug up an old poem (Winding Paths), just so that my regular readers (bless your dear hearts!!) wouldn't be disappointed. Being the sort of person I am, I basked in my "writer's block", waiting for a deep wave of emotion to sweep over me and wash me back into the sea of inspiration. Apparently, as the popular (and I dare say, Aunty Dora) NAIJA saying goes, I de old.
What I chose to do instead was to put down on my blackberry, every thought that comes to mind. Yes Sah, the bb can be very useful. I started going to Thursday poetry sessions at Bogobiri and got inspired again, many thanks to folk like Wansie, Tolu and Ferdie.
Still adamant to find the same old high, I went scouting for old poems I had written, rather than try my hands at writing new material. Whilst thinking of my opening speech (which, in my opinion, is usually an artist's explanation) for a particular piece, I found myself writing this and thought it worthy of sharing, whilst waiting ....
What I love about artists is how we're able to express our emotions so unreservedly.
It is how open we are about a thought, a feeling, an emotion.
We let it work through us and run its course, knowing that it will not happen forever and without holding on to it, we're open to new expressions the very next moment.
It doesn't make us fickle or unstable; it simply shows we have that key quality everyone needs to live well.... The ability to smell roses.
We can sing in one moment about how torn our heart is and how we hate you for leaving; yet in the next we celebrate the beauty of love and swimming butterflies....
It is how open we are about a thought, a feeling, an emotion.
We let it work through us and run its course, knowing that it will not happen forever and without holding on to it, we're open to new expressions the very next moment.
It doesn't make us fickle or unstable; it simply shows we have that key quality everyone needs to live well.... The ability to smell roses.
We can sing in one moment about how torn our heart is and how we hate you for leaving; yet in the next we celebrate the beauty of love and swimming butterflies....
We can paint our pain and our joy so blatantly on one canvass.
We write words we would dare not speak to any human boldly on white paper.
We compose music that you'd gyrate to, make love to, meditate to, cry to....
We write words we would dare not speak to any human boldly on white paper.
We compose music that you'd gyrate to, make love to, meditate to, cry to....
We know you know the notes of our heart!
The tunes and strokes and cuts and innuendos that speak the love, the joy, the pain, the hurt, the Feelings that we're feeling!!
I love art.
So today, whilst I ponder on the subject and meaning of that ever evasive word, Love, I'll share some thoughts I'd written about two years ago, in a relationship I thought was made in heaven.
I love art.
So today, whilst I ponder on the subject and meaning of that ever evasive word, Love, I'll share some thoughts I'd written about two years ago, in a relationship I thought was made in heaven.
Here goes....
NB: I never performed that poem. Now, what does that say of me? I guess it served its purpose already! Yayyy!!!
Love, Diva.
Writers' Block huh? I honestly wonder why that happens sometimes. At one point i felt it was linked to complacency (if like most professional writers you make a living from writing and have taken your successes for granted) but for people like myself, i write cos i love it and occasionally i stop cos i got other bill paying streams to mind ;) . I guess what i'm saying is you don't have to be too hard on yourself at least your's wasn't the case of the 'yips'. Now that would've been nasty. ;)
ReplyDeletePS. Nice piece
ReplyDelete@RubberbandMan: Thankfully, I don't make a living from writing, but I'd better take it seriously; cause I want to make a living from it. I simply love writing. Thank you so much though...
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